life is full of surprises, when i thought my roller coaster ride was coming to an end, the engine just restarted, taking me to another ride. the ride itself is making me feel agitated, coupled with a feeling of lack of support, there were times when i just wanted to throw in the towel.
the ride plus the shows i saw in the past week (revolutionary road and murder in san jose) prompted me to think more about life. the tension in marriage represented in these shows, the results of differing perspectives of life being bound together for "reality", is this where marriage would end up, no matter how much you thought you love each other? being realistic seems to be the common thread in both shows, dreams they are giving up because they need to be realistic. yet, who has the courage to chase their dreams? to give up their status quo? april wheeler (kate winslet) projected her desire to change through her husband, was she bound by culture or did she really have the courage to chase the dream of being different? tang (desmond tang) desires to live a different life outside of his current situation, yet lives in fear -- fear of change, what a dilemma! in both shows, it ended with a tragic event, which i don't think was the only way out. but it just demonstrates how reality could push people to their edge.
reality is kicking in, so i guess i need to hang in here for another roller coaster ride.
